Weigh In Wednesday - Week 9

I really hope I lose. My cousin was here over the weekend and I took off Monday so I wasn't perfect (helloooo 3 cupcakes.) but, I think I did okay. I mostly counted and I don't think I even used all my extra points (okay, maybe the cupcakes). I ate a turkey sandwich at a burger place (I did have fries though) and got a salad the next day for lunch (the BEST salad, but I stuffed myself with said salad even though I knew I shouldn't).

So, I may not be losing 6lbs by the end of Spring Challenge. Oh well. This Challenge has NOT had the desired effect on my motivation. I feel too pressured and start to give up.


Okay. Just got back from weigh in. To refresh your memory:

Week 1: Starting weigh in

Week 2: -.6

Week 3: -3.4

Week 4: -1.0

Week 5: +1.2

Week 6: -1.2

Week 7: 0

Week 8: +1.4

Week 9: -2.6

Total lost = 7.4

I should really stop writing half of these posts BEFORE I weigh in. I LOST 2.6 POUNDS. Now, I need to be careful not to "reward" myself for doing well. Note to self: cupcakes are not a reward for weightloss.

I guess the moral today is - stick to it and don't give up even when you screw it up a little...or a lot.

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 8

I didn't have high hopes for this Weigh In Wednesday. Like I said on Monday, Easter blew my diet and it doesn't help that the Spring Challenge is having the opposite effect on my weight loss than I anticipated. I'm stressed out about not doing well enough that any time I screw up I get really depressed and start eating like shit. It's the worst thing I could do to myself for weight loss, and yet I keep doing it day after day.

So, that's why I didn't think I'd lose any weight from last week when I held steady at -6.2 total lbs.

Week 1: Starting weigh in

Week 2: -.6

Week 3: -3.4

Week 4: -1.0

Week 5: +1.2

Week 6: -1.2

Week 7: 0

Week 8: +1.4

Total lost = 4.8
It's okay. I'll do better next week. I'm going to work REALLY hard. I promise.


Now, a rant about my week.It's been rough. I'm feeling like my master's degree and passing the CPA exam (won't be a CPA until my year of supervision is done) were worth nothing to this company. I'm stuck on the same level in the same job as people with a bachelor's degree.... but I still need the same 3 years of "experience" to get a promotion. Basically until I want to be a controller, my CPA is unnecessary. It's very disheartening, but to make it worse I'm in the ONE department I knew from the get go I didn't want to be in. I'm an audit major for a reason. I don't enjoy tax. Tax makes my head hurt. I'm not naturally good at tax, and even when I'm putting everything I have into it I'm slow and barely at par. Now I'm going to be here for an extra 2 months. I thought I was 2 months away from leaving this department, now I'm only halfway through my stint. 8 months. 8 months in hell where the qualifications are made up and the degrees don't matter......

See what I did there? ha. I need to be more positive or I'm never going to get through this. It's just hard not to want to crawl under my desk and hide from the world. I hate everything, and when I don't I have a hard time feeling anything. I fake smile and interact with people. I try to act like a normal person. I think I get it right, but it takes a lot out of me and there  seems to be no end in sight. I just need an end in sight.

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 7

I'm a day late, but I don't weigh in until noon at my weekly meeting, so I forgot.
Anyways, I'm holding steady.

Week 1: Starting weigh in

Week 2: -.6

Week 3: -3.4

Week 4: -1.0

Week 5: +1.2

Week 6: -1.2

Week 7: 0

All in all, I'm happy with that. I splurged more than I should have. Not exactly what I wanted going into Easter weekend, but I'm determined to be good and only splurge with my 49 points. 

Speaking of, it's a holiday tomorrow. We're going all the way to Arkansas. I actually really hate busy weekends. They make the week back feel so much worse. But, it'll be good to see the hubs parents. 

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 6

It's week 6 of Weight Watchers for me. I've been (mostly) steadily losing weight. It's felt really good, but I know half of it is getting off the Zoloft. Within a week of switching my meds I stopped craving carbs so bad I would talk myself into ANYTHING (6 doughnuts, whatever. You'll feel better when you eat them even if you feel guilty later). I have pretty good self control, but for about a year that all went down the drain. I gained 60lbs and things sucked for awhile. Now I have a new doctor and different meds. Getting my mental health/medications under control has really helped me, and Weight Watchers is a great support group.

Anyways, here is my weight loss starting from week 1.

• Week 1: Starting weigh in
• Week 2: -.6
• Week 3: -3.4
• Week 4: -1.0
• Week 5: +1.2
• Week 6: -1.2

So, I lost what I gained in week 5. I'll take that (I was sooooo sick in week 5 I didn't count a thing all week, and ate pizza a lot).