Weigh In Wednesday - Week 8

I didn't have high hopes for this Weigh In Wednesday. Like I said on Monday, Easter blew my diet and it doesn't help that the Spring Challenge is having the opposite effect on my weight loss than I anticipated. I'm stressed out about not doing well enough that any time I screw up I get really depressed and start eating like shit. It's the worst thing I could do to myself for weight loss, and yet I keep doing it day after day.

So, that's why I didn't think I'd lose any weight from last week when I held steady at -6.2 total lbs.

Week 1: Starting weigh in

Week 2: -.6

Week 3: -3.4

Week 4: -1.0

Week 5: +1.2

Week 6: -1.2

Week 7: 0

Week 8: +1.4

Total lost = 4.8
It's okay. I'll do better next week. I'm going to work REALLY hard. I promise.


Now, a rant about my week.It's been rough. I'm feeling like my master's degree and passing the CPA exam (won't be a CPA until my year of supervision is done) were worth nothing to this company. I'm stuck on the same level in the same job as people with a bachelor's degree.... but I still need the same 3 years of "experience" to get a promotion. Basically until I want to be a controller, my CPA is unnecessary. It's very disheartening, but to make it worse I'm in the ONE department I knew from the get go I didn't want to be in. I'm an audit major for a reason. I don't enjoy tax. Tax makes my head hurt. I'm not naturally good at tax, and even when I'm putting everything I have into it I'm slow and barely at par. Now I'm going to be here for an extra 2 months. I thought I was 2 months away from leaving this department, now I'm only halfway through my stint. 8 months. 8 months in hell where the qualifications are made up and the degrees don't matter......

See what I did there? ha. I need to be more positive or I'm never going to get through this. It's just hard not to want to crawl under my desk and hide from the world. I hate everything, and when I don't I have a hard time feeling anything. I fake smile and interact with people. I try to act like a normal person. I think I get it right, but it takes a lot out of me and there  seems to be no end in sight. I just need an end in sight.

Easter Blew My Diet

I really felt like I did okay, but I didn't track over Easter. I'm now -15 weekly points. Not awful, but I probably can't workout enough by Wednesday to counteract that. *sigh*
BUT I didn't eat ANY chocolate or Easter candy (some strawberry pound cake and key lime pie were my downfall). Small wins.

I'm still hoping for a little weight loss this week. I held at zero last Wednesday but if I want to make my Spring Challenge goal of 6 lbs in 6 weeks, I need to start losing a little over a pound a week.

Okay, short post today. Trying to get caught up from being off on Friday!

Spring Challenge - Day 1

My goals for today specifically - drink 100 oz of water - log food - journal.
The water thing is going to be the hardest. That's 5.55 of my water bottle. I average about 2 a day. Should have done the math last week and started slowly increasing. And also bought a new bite valve for my camelback. I'm using a knockoff type camelback water bottle, and I HATE not having the bite valve. Oh well. Maybe I'll order a replacement tonight, because I think my camelback is also bigger and so less refills which is psychologically pleasing.

As of noon I've drank an entire bottle of water. This is not looking good.

We also got our team challenges for the first 2 weeks. The first? Attending group classes. I want to go to group classes, but the only one's I can go to are during lunch...which is very stressful for me. I don't want to be sweaty, so I'll have to rinse off after. No big deal, we have showers, but what if there are a ton of people waiting? What if I have to stand around in a towel after? I'm too self conscious to do that. One of these days I'm going to force myself to go, but I'm not ready yet. Next week is better, it's  walking/running/rowing distance. It has to be in or around our gym. Which makes me remember that I forgot to update my ipod. It still has all of 20 songs on it from my wedding. Shoot.

This probably sounds like I'm just going to be complaining about the Spring Challenge the entire time. I hope not, but I have trouble with team sports. (okay, this is not a sport, give me a second). I feel like if I would have just moved faster, hit the ball harder, or in general been better we would have won. So, I stress about everything.

Spring Challenge

Well, Monday starts our Spring Challenge at work. We are put onto 3 teams and choose 6 goals out of a list of about 30. I chose to workout 5 days a week, lose 6lbs, 10 minutes of meditation for 3 days/week, log all food for 4 weeks, drink 100 oz of water/day, and lastly - journaling 3 days a week.

I don't know why I chose journaling. Scratch that, I know exactly why I picked journaling, I'm just kicking myself for it now. I want to run a semi successful blog. I've even started at least 3 blogs (crafting, beauty, and refashioning clothes), and didn't do anything with them. I tried, I really did. I just get stuck in my own head trying to figure out if I should cuss, how much personal info to reveal, and generally trying to figure out what the heck I should talk about.... I like focused blogs, but I don't have a focused mind. I craft, I cross stitch, I ride horses, I play online video games(hence the NuggetIRL), I train dogs, and I work 40 hours a week. However, other than the working 40 hours a week I don't really do anything consistently. In the end, I just stop doing whatever it was I started the blog for and don't swing back around for awhile.

Sooo, I guess here's my life blog, at least for the next six weeks. (I really want our team to win this challenge!)

I hope someone enjoys it.